11 September 2006

I Am The Disappointment

It seems to haunt me where ever I go in life. Disappointment. Always because of me. It is said that Technology and Innovations makes everything better, easier and all of that. The strong reality is that for me it has made everything worse, harder and all of that.

I cannot blame anyone else. Nor do I want to. As this guy, I will take the responsibility. I am human and as such I have failed, again. Weak, pathetic and disgusting all in one fell swoop. I don't know the solution--- aside from moving to a hermit state. There is little comfort in knowing that I am not alone in my err (millions and millions in jail for various troubles). The Bible is equally full of thorns... some larger than others. It is a bit confusing sometimes as to how some are overlooked. Some got past the troubles and continued on to the great things. Some just got swallowed up in their circumstances.

Choices have to be made.

Apologies are never enough. Words even less.

My consolation is this:

“Consequently, you are no longer foreigners and aliens, but fellow citizens with God's people and members of God's household, built on the foundation of the apostles and prophets, with Christ Jesus himself as the chief cornerstone. In him the whole building is joined together and rises to become a holy temple in the Lord. And in him you too are being built together to become a dwelling in which God lives by his Spirit.” (Ephesians 2:19-21)

Sinner saved by grace. Jesus is my cornerstone and I am being built to become the dwelling I should be that God might live by His Spirit in me. I still need lots of construction as my walls have fallen. Working for a large building construction retailer I know that this kind of project cannot be completely finished by myself (I can only draw a crooked-straight lines). Building projects take time, have cost overruns, and sometimes are scrapped to be started all over again. Know any plumbers?

31.4% of Americans don't have internet access. I do (hate to be Captain Obvious, but it's true). Some days I wish I didn't. Today is one.

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